Friday, March 30, 2007
Friday
Stacey was off work again yesterday so we went to Cleburne to take some furniture that we plan to sell in our garage sale Saturday. (if it doesn't rain) We'll be going back tonight to spend the night.
I don't feel good this morning. I woke up and my eyes are swollen and I have a headache. I have a hangover from nothing. I blame my meds.
Other than that, not much going on. It stormed yesterday but I think for the most part, it's over. I love a good thunderstorm.
Posted By Sam @ 7:58 AM
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Quiz
| You May Be a Bit Antisocial... |
 Antisocial? That may be a bit of an understatement. You think rules are meant to be broken - and with gusto! Having no fear, you don't even think about consequences. But people love you anyway... you've got a boatload of charm. |
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#1 Nevada
#2 New Mexico
#3 Arizona
#4 Maryland
#5 Tennessee
#6 South Carolina
#7 Alaska
#8 Florida
#9 California
#10 Louisiana
#11 Michigan
#12 My lovely State of Texas
Your state not in the top 12? See where is ranks here.
Top 12 Most Dangerous States
#1 Nevada
#2 New Mexico
#3 Arizona
#4 Maryland
#5 Tennessee
#6 South Carolina
#7 Alaska
#8 Florida
#9 California
#10 Louisiana
#11 Michigan
#12 My lovely State of Texas
Your state not in the top 12? See where is ranks here.
Posted By Sam @ 4:29 PM
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Stacey and her sister went to Shreveport to spend the day (and their money) and I'm at home, bored once again.
I'm in this anxious mood where I can't sit still but I can't get into doing anything either because I get bored with it. I'm trying to force myself to go screw around in my art room because I'll usually find something to keep my attention there.
I took at long hot bath earlier. Since our water heater in 23 years old, I boiled to large pots of water with lavender oil. I ran my bath water as hot as I could get it (which isn't very hot-that's where the boiling water comes in) I added a half bottle of bubble bath, sea salts with other sea ingredients in it, more bath oil, lavender salts and lit some candles. I put on the relaxing music and soaked. Then I washed my hair, got out, and right back on the computer.
Whatta day.
Another Day
Stacey and her sister went to Shreveport to spend the day (and their money) and I'm at home, bored once again.
I'm in this anxious mood where I can't sit still but I can't get into doing anything either because I get bored with it. I'm trying to force myself to go screw around in my art room because I'll usually find something to keep my attention there.
I took at long hot bath earlier. Since our water heater in 23 years old, I boiled to large pots of water with lavender oil. I ran my bath water as hot as I could get it (which isn't very hot-that's where the boiling water comes in) I added a half bottle of bubble bath, sea salts with other sea ingredients in it, more bath oil, lavender salts and lit some candles. I put on the relaxing music and soaked. Then I washed my hair, got out, and right back on the computer.
Whatta day.
Posted By Sam @ 2:24 PM
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Stacey took off work and we spent the day thrift store shopping. I found 2 pair of shorts for around $2 each and a rack to put our DVDs on. Most of my clothes come from thrift stores and I'm not ashamed of that at all. I don't NEED any new clothes. I have plenty of clothes and if I really wanted to, I could go to the mall and buy nice new clothes, but I prefer a deal. I like cheap. I don't have a ton of money so if I can a name brand pair of shorts for $2 that look brand new rather that at retail for $35, why not?
And just a random observation today. We went to the Salvation Army to look around. MY GOD. They had some old beat up dresser that had wood missing off the top and they wanted $300 for it!! I couldn't believe the prices in that place! They are mark their shit way ABOVE new retail price. We saw the bike (a smaller version) that we bought for Stacey's nephew 2 Christmas' ago. We paid $75 for the large bike at Wal-Mart. Salvation Army had the small one dirty and worn out for $129! WTF? They need a sign out front that says "BOHIC" (Bend over here it comes)
(Got that one from dad)
I also bathed both dogs. I don't know what Daisy's problem is but she humps constantly. Anytime Ruby is sitting still she jumps on her back and bangs away. It's really funny to watch. (Ruby is a boxer and Daisy is a 7 lb miniature schnauzer) She's done it ever since we got her. Dogs are strange.
Stacey is asleep. I don't think she's going to work tomorrow either. She needs a break. She's in a lot of pain from the work she does and I enjoyed spending the day with her today.
I ate boiled shrimp and a Mexican cocktail from Hook Line & Sinker, my favorite seafood restaurant in town. I know I can't eat fried seafood, but I didn't think the boiled stuff would bother me. I don't know if it was that or the cocktail, but I've been in such horrible pain. I feel like there is a hot iron in my stomach. It last for hours. I ate that around 4pm and I'm still hurting so bad I can't sleep. It's so bad that when I stand up my legs get week and I feel like I'm going to pass out. I have no idea what's causing it and it's only seafood that does it. My favorite food of all. I'm cursed.
I've been painting a lot lately. I've been so down. My best friend Kim is banned by her family from visiting with me because of my mental problems. Because I cut myself, I must automatically be violent toward others. Kim is 40 years old but because she doesn't have a vehicle, she's stuck at her mothers 3 hours away.
A whole different story I'll get into some other time. Anyway, painting takes away all of my negative thoughts. It's very therapeutic. Selling it is also great. To think that there are people out there all over the world with my artwork hanging on their walls and in their shops is very rewarding. I'm thinking of painting one soon for charity. Maybe for the SPCA. Definitely something animal related.
I didn't take my meds tonight. Livey has scared me into not taking the Depakote. (She's only looking out for me :) I've heard other horror stories about Depakote and liver damage and now that she's told me hers, I'm calling me doctor and asking for something else. Anyway, I like to drink occasionally and I take pain medication that also effects the liver.
Okay, I'm going to bed now. Night all.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Tuesday
Stacey took off work and we spent the day thrift store shopping. I found 2 pair of shorts for around $2 each and a rack to put our DVDs on. Most of my clothes come from thrift stores and I'm not ashamed of that at all. I don't NEED any new clothes. I have plenty of clothes and if I really wanted to, I could go to the mall and buy nice new clothes, but I prefer a deal. I like cheap. I don't have a ton of money so if I can a name brand pair of shorts for $2 that look brand new rather that at retail for $35, why not?
And just a random observation today. We went to the Salvation Army to look around. MY GOD. They had some old beat up dresser that had wood missing off the top and they wanted $300 for it!! I couldn't believe the prices in that place! They are mark their shit way ABOVE new retail price. We saw the bike (a smaller version) that we bought for Stacey's nephew 2 Christmas' ago. We paid $75 for the large bike at Wal-Mart. Salvation Army had the small one dirty and worn out for $129! WTF? They need a sign out front that says "BOHIC" (Bend over here it comes)
(Got that one from dad)
I also bathed both dogs. I don't know what Daisy's problem is but she humps constantly. Anytime Ruby is sitting still she jumps on her back and bangs away. It's really funny to watch. (Ruby is a boxer and Daisy is a 7 lb miniature schnauzer) She's done it ever since we got her. Dogs are strange.
Stacey is asleep. I don't think she's going to work tomorrow either. She needs a break. She's in a lot of pain from the work she does and I enjoyed spending the day with her today.
I ate boiled shrimp and a Mexican cocktail from Hook Line & Sinker, my favorite seafood restaurant in town. I know I can't eat fried seafood, but I didn't think the boiled stuff would bother me. I don't know if it was that or the cocktail, but I've been in such horrible pain. I feel like there is a hot iron in my stomach. It last for hours. I ate that around 4pm and I'm still hurting so bad I can't sleep. It's so bad that when I stand up my legs get week and I feel like I'm going to pass out. I have no idea what's causing it and it's only seafood that does it. My favorite food of all. I'm cursed.
I've been painting a lot lately. I've been so down. My best friend Kim is banned by her family from visiting with me because of my mental problems. Because I cut myself, I must automatically be violent toward others. Kim is 40 years old but because she doesn't have a vehicle, she's stuck at her mothers 3 hours away.
A whole different story I'll get into some other time. Anyway, painting takes away all of my negative thoughts. It's very therapeutic. Selling it is also great. To think that there are people out there all over the world with my artwork hanging on their walls and in their shops is very rewarding. I'm thinking of painting one soon for charity. Maybe for the SPCA. Definitely something animal related.
I didn't take my meds tonight. Livey has scared me into not taking the Depakote. (She's only looking out for me :) I've heard other horror stories about Depakote and liver damage and now that she's told me hers, I'm calling me doctor and asking for something else. Anyway, I like to drink occasionally and I take pain medication that also effects the liver.
Okay, I'm going to bed now. Night all.
Posted By Sam @ 9:36 PM
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Sheriff: A&M Student's Body Cooked On Grill
Woman Shot Repeatedly In Face, Shoulder
Car Thief Missing From Prison
Dallas Officer Dies In Shootout Following Car Chase
Just to brighten your day.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Our Local News
Sheriff: A&M Student's Body Cooked On Grill
Woman Shot Repeatedly In Face, Shoulder
Car Thief Missing From Prison
Dallas Officer Dies In Shootout Following Car Chase
Just to brighten your day.
Posted By Sam @ 11:22 AM
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I filled all of my precriptions yesterday. I only took 2 home because I didn't have $60 to pay for them all at one time. I have enough depakote to last a few more days and I really don't need the sleeping pill as long as I have the klonopin which I took 2 of last night along with Xanax because I couldn't sleep. I have somewhat of a headache this morning, but I slept without waking up once! So I started my Zoloft last night. Only 1/2 a pill since I'm sensitive to some meds. So right now I'm taking"
1500mg of Depakote once a day
25mg of Zoloft once a day (but that will increase to 50mg in 3 days if I'm tolerating it well)
.5mg of the Klonopin twice a day ot as needed
2mg of Lunesta which I don't take because I had such bed hallucinations to ambien that I'm afraid to try this one.
I still need to get my blood work done to make sure the Depakote isn't destroying my liver too bad. They screwed it up so bad last time and I really don't feel like going back.
I HATE taking pills. They end up stuck somewhere in my chest and it's a very uncomfortable feeling for about 30 minutes. Ughg.
I think I'm going back to bed.
Today
I filled all of my precriptions yesterday. I only took 2 home because I didn't have $60 to pay for them all at one time. I have enough depakote to last a few more days and I really don't need the sleeping pill as long as I have the klonopin which I took 2 of last night along with Xanax because I couldn't sleep. I have somewhat of a headache this morning, but I slept without waking up once! So I started my Zoloft last night. Only 1/2 a pill since I'm sensitive to some meds. So right now I'm taking"
1500mg of Depakote once a day
25mg of Zoloft once a day (but that will increase to 50mg in 3 days if I'm tolerating it well)
.5mg of the Klonopin twice a day ot as needed
2mg of Lunesta which I don't take because I had such bed hallucinations to ambien that I'm afraid to try this one.
I still need to get my blood work done to make sure the Depakote isn't destroying my liver too bad. They screwed it up so bad last time and I really don't feel like going back.
I HATE taking pills. They end up stuck somewhere in my chest and it's a very uncomfortable feeling for about 30 minutes. Ughg.
I think I'm going back to bed.
Posted By Sam @ 8:09 AM
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Stevie has been doing such a wonderful job at repost some of my dad's best on his blogsite. I read his old posts and laugh. He had such a way with words. Like this one...
IT ALL FIT ~Originally published November 18, 2004~
I have everything I'm taking to Costa Rica packed into one bag. This is good. I ain't taking a whole lot with me, but I think I've still got more than I need. I am ready to go tomorrow.
I went by and had a nice visit with my mama today. She and my grandmother think I am very handsome now that I have a short haircut and no beard anymore. Awww... they love me even when I'm ugly.
I arrived back home this afternoon and had a typical polite, articulate message from Recondo 32 on my machine: "Hey, asshole! Turn off the porno movie, get your cock out of your paw and stop jacking off. Pick up the goddam phone, shit-bird!" See how MY FRIENDS talk to me? No wonder I'm so depressed all the time.
I watched a movie that had a hysterical woman in it. If I were a feminist, that kind of shit would piss me off. EVERY movie that has action and violence in it features at least one hysterical woman, you know, the one who goes to screaming pieces at the sight of blood, who can't see through the torrents of tears streaming from her eyes, who walks backward, trembling with fright and whimpering like a whipped dog, until she bumps into something she didn't see and screams some more.
What kind of message does that send? I AM WOMAN! Hear me WHINE and watch me act with the maturity and intelligence of a three year-old boy in a crisis situation. Got Dam! I can't call 'em "broads" anymore, because that's a sexist term. But Hollywood keeps showing hysterical wimmen by the truckload. Go figure.
I got a holiday greeting card from the US Post Office today. Why? What am I going to do if I DON'T receive that greeting card? Take my business elsewhere for home mail? What a useless gesture. How much did that shit cost?
I almost signed up for an internet dating service today. I chickened out at the last minute, mainly because I'm leaving the country tomorrow, and I want to be around to see what kind of fucked-up woman might be interested in ME when I post the bio I composed especially for the ad. Yeah, I like candle-lit dinners, long walks on the beach and taxidermy. You oughta see my stuffed armadillo collection.
I may have a guest blogger posting while I'm gone. I dared him, and he SAYS he has cast-iron balls. We'll see. He has the keys to the joint.
You gonna miss me while I'm gone???
I miss you now dad.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
My Dad
Stevie has been doing such a wonderful job at repost some of my dad's best on his blogsite. I read his old posts and laugh. He had such a way with words. Like this one...
IT ALL FIT ~Originally published November 18, 2004~
I have everything I'm taking to Costa Rica packed into one bag. This is good. I ain't taking a whole lot with me, but I think I've still got more than I need. I am ready to go tomorrow.
I went by and had a nice visit with my mama today. She and my grandmother think I am very handsome now that I have a short haircut and no beard anymore. Awww... they love me even when I'm ugly.
I arrived back home this afternoon and had a typical polite, articulate message from Recondo 32 on my machine: "Hey, asshole! Turn off the porno movie, get your cock out of your paw and stop jacking off. Pick up the goddam phone, shit-bird!" See how MY FRIENDS talk to me? No wonder I'm so depressed all the time.
I watched a movie that had a hysterical woman in it. If I were a feminist, that kind of shit would piss me off. EVERY movie that has action and violence in it features at least one hysterical woman, you know, the one who goes to screaming pieces at the sight of blood, who can't see through the torrents of tears streaming from her eyes, who walks backward, trembling with fright and whimpering like a whipped dog, until she bumps into something she didn't see and screams some more.
What kind of message does that send? I AM WOMAN! Hear me WHINE and watch me act with the maturity and intelligence of a three year-old boy in a crisis situation. Got Dam! I can't call 'em "broads" anymore, because that's a sexist term. But Hollywood keeps showing hysterical wimmen by the truckload. Go figure.
I got a holiday greeting card from the US Post Office today. Why? What am I going to do if I DON'T receive that greeting card? Take my business elsewhere for home mail? What a useless gesture. How much did that shit cost?
I almost signed up for an internet dating service today. I chickened out at the last minute, mainly because I'm leaving the country tomorrow, and I want to be around to see what kind of fucked-up woman might be interested in ME when I post the bio I composed especially for the ad. Yeah, I like candle-lit dinners, long walks on the beach and taxidermy. You oughta see my stuffed armadillo collection.
I may have a guest blogger posting while I'm gone. I dared him, and he SAYS he has cast-iron balls. We'll see. He has the keys to the joint.
You gonna miss me while I'm gone???
I miss you now dad.
Posted By Sam @ 9:15 AM
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Stacey's sister is in a halfway house. She gets an 8 hour pass today. They will add on 2 extra hours if a family member attends 2 hours of group with her. So being the good sister-in-law that I am, I'm going so she can go down to the camp site and stay until 10pm. I don't know if I want to go to the campsite tonight or not. I know I need to get out but sometimes I get in these moods where I just want to be kept up in the house and paint.
We'll see. If I don't post for the rest of the day, you'll know where I'm at.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
NO MORE GROUPS!
Stacey's sister is in a halfway house. She gets an 8 hour pass today. They will add on 2 extra hours if a family member attends 2 hours of group with her. So being the good sister-in-law that I am, I'm going so she can go down to the camp site and stay until 10pm. I don't know if I want to go to the campsite tonight or not. I know I need to get out but sometimes I get in these moods where I just want to be kept up in the house and paint.
We'll see. If I don't post for the rest of the day, you'll know where I'm at.
Posted By Sam @ 7:03 AM
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I went to see my psych Dr today. I really see a nurse. She's this tall skinny lesbian who dresses like a boy in polo shirts and khakis. She's nice and seems to understand my fear of new meds. She told me is was MANDATORY that I call a therapist before our next visit. So I picked one off the list (my last one was a ding bat) and made an appointment. I go on the 2nd. She also put me on Zoloft. I took that back when I was 16 but I can't remember what effects it had. If I remember right, there were none, but we'll see.
Stacey and I are going to pull the camper down for Stacey's mom and sister. They want to camp this weekend even though it's supposed to be rainy and nasty. I can see it now. Grandma, Stacey's sister who lets her kid do whatever he wants whenever he wants, a pouty lazy 9 year old who whines all the time and the wild kid who never stops cramped up inside a small RV for 2 days. But they insist. We're not going since Stacey has to work tomorrow.
I hope they all have fun though. I think I'll get some housework done, paint some and hang out with Stace and the animals.
My newest piece...
Friday, March 23, 2007
Therapists
I went to see my psych Dr today. I really see a nurse. She's this tall skinny lesbian who dresses like a boy in polo shirts and khakis. She's nice and seems to understand my fear of new meds. She told me is was MANDATORY that I call a therapist before our next visit. So I picked one off the list (my last one was a ding bat) and made an appointment. I go on the 2nd. She also put me on Zoloft. I took that back when I was 16 but I can't remember what effects it had. If I remember right, there were none, but we'll see.
Stacey and I are going to pull the camper down for Stacey's mom and sister. They want to camp this weekend even though it's supposed to be rainy and nasty. I can see it now. Grandma, Stacey's sister who lets her kid do whatever he wants whenever he wants, a pouty lazy 9 year old who whines all the time and the wild kid who never stops cramped up inside a small RV for 2 days. But they insist. We're not going since Stacey has to work tomorrow.
I hope they all have fun though. I think I'll get some housework done, paint some and hang out with Stace and the animals.
My newest piece...
I have it listed on Ebay but it hasn't shown up in the search yet. The item # is 190095879630 so if you type that the search in it may pull up.
I love painting the folk people! I went to the craft store for more canvas today. I can't afford to buy the high dollar 1.5 thick edge canvas so I'm making do with the panels. It's the artwork that counts, not the canvavs type. I've put satin rope hangers on the back so they hang without a frame. I like the flat art.
Posted By Sam @ 12:36 PM
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I'm listening to the Doobie Brothers Listen To The Music. I like that song. For some reason it lifts my mood.
I've been painting all morning and haven't done a damn thing around the house.
I'm going to visit my best friend Kim next Tuesday in Waxahachie.
I just accidentally stepped on my dog while dusting off the TV. I didn't hurt her but I still feel like shit. She loves me so much and I wouldn't ever want her to think that I hurt her purposely.
I'm down in the dumps because a lot of my old childhood friends have really made something out of their lives and are having fun and look great. I'm a big depressed nothing.
Every time I hear Jimmy Buffet on the Radio I think of my dad.
The one chore I hate more than any other is unloading the dishwasher. Give me a toilet brush and a shit stained commode any day.
I love raw oysters. Every time I eat them I wish I was back in Savannah, on the coast.
Wal-Mart's CEO got a 2 million dollar bonus this year. The hard working $7-10/hr floor employees got less than a $1,200 bonus. The Co-managers who work 70hr weeks and are salary paid got a $4,000-$8,000 bonus .
The rich get richer, the poor get taken care of and the middle class, well, their fucked.
I used to be a gymnast/cheerleader/majorette. I could back flip all the way across someone's front yard and I never ran out of energy.
That was 10 years ago.
I'm 24 and I can barely get out of bed in the mornings I hurt so bad from doing nothing.
I visit my Dr. tomorrow. I still haven't had my blood work done and I don't care anymore. She can put me on something else. The only thing this Depakote is doing for me anymore is giving me the shits.
Yes, I'm depressed today.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Randomness
I'm listening to the Doobie Brothers Listen To The Music. I like that song. For some reason it lifts my mood.
I've been painting all morning and haven't done a damn thing around the house.
I'm going to visit my best friend Kim next Tuesday in Waxahachie.
I just accidentally stepped on my dog while dusting off the TV. I didn't hurt her but I still feel like shit. She loves me so much and I wouldn't ever want her to think that I hurt her purposely.
I'm down in the dumps because a lot of my old childhood friends have really made something out of their lives and are having fun and look great. I'm a big depressed nothing.
Every time I hear Jimmy Buffet on the Radio I think of my dad.
The one chore I hate more than any other is unloading the dishwasher. Give me a toilet brush and a shit stained commode any day.
I love raw oysters. Every time I eat them I wish I was back in Savannah, on the coast.
Wal-Mart's CEO got a 2 million dollar bonus this year. The hard working $7-10/hr floor employees got less than a $1,200 bonus. The Co-managers who work 70hr weeks and are salary paid got a $4,000-$8,000 bonus .
The rich get richer, the poor get taken care of and the middle class, well, their fucked.
I used to be a gymnast/cheerleader/majorette. I could back flip all the way across someone's front yard and I never ran out of energy.
That was 10 years ago.
I'm 24 and I can barely get out of bed in the mornings I hurt so bad from doing nothing.
I visit my Dr. tomorrow. I still haven't had my blood work done and I don't care anymore. She can put me on something else. The only thing this Depakote is doing for me anymore is giving me the shits.
Yes, I'm depressed today.
Posted By Sam @ 11:22 AM
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I had a bad night last night. I was either too hot or too cold. I slept with me head at the foot of the bed and couldn't stop shaking. I thought it was because I was cold but as soon as I covered up I would start sweating. So I put a light blanket over me and positioned myself in front of the fan. I shook off and on all night. I had to use the bathroom every few minutes. I was miserable. I had a few bad moments this morning of crying for no reason but I feel somewhat better now.
I'm eating a Cesar salad and browsing Myspace. I also completed a painting this morning. I'll probably list it on Ebay tomorrow.
I'm watching The Simple Life rerun where they're making sausages. Lol
Stacey and I may go to Cleburne tonight to look at camping spots. She was supposed to do that yesterday but it got too late.
I'm going to wash my hair.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Today
I had a bad night last night. I was either too hot or too cold. I slept with me head at the foot of the bed and couldn't stop shaking. I thought it was because I was cold but as soon as I covered up I would start sweating. So I put a light blanket over me and positioned myself in front of the fan. I shook off and on all night. I had to use the bathroom every few minutes. I was miserable. I had a few bad moments this morning of crying for no reason but I feel somewhat better now.
I'm eating a Cesar salad and browsing Myspace. I also completed a painting this morning. I'll probably list it on Ebay tomorrow.
I'm watching The Simple Life rerun where they're making sausages. Lol
Stacey and I may go to Cleburne tonight to look at camping spots. She was supposed to do that yesterday but it got too late.
I'm going to wash my hair.
Posted By Sam @ 12:49 PM
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I've been so down today that I have a hard time staying out of the bed. I have no energy and every time I stand up my head spins. I've been crying for no reason. Stacey went out to Whitney to look for camping spots and I decided to stay home. I don't feel like doing a damn thing.
I don't want to paint, I don't want to watch TV and eating is a chore. I can't sleep either. I wish this down phase would pass. I'd much rather be manic. At least today.
I've been browsing Myspace some more and have found lots of people that would shit bricks if they knew I was looking at their profile. An old boss of mine! LOL! Her and her wannabe sexy pics.
A lot of bloggers don't like Myspace, but I think it's fun.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Depressed
I've been so down today that I have a hard time staying out of the bed. I have no energy and every time I stand up my head spins. I've been crying for no reason. Stacey went out to Whitney to look for camping spots and I decided to stay home. I don't feel like doing a damn thing.
I don't want to paint, I don't want to watch TV and eating is a chore. I can't sleep either. I wish this down phase would pass. I'd much rather be manic. At least today.
I've been browsing Myspace some more and have found lots of people that would shit bricks if they knew I was looking at their profile. An old boss of mine! LOL! Her and her wannabe sexy pics.
A lot of bloggers don't like Myspace, but I think it's fun.
Posted By Sam @ 3:53 PM
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I was up off and on all night going to the bathroom. I don't know what I ate but I'd be lying in bed and just cramp up. I'd be in so much pain that I'd crawl into a fetal position and cry. Then I'd get up and go to the bathroom where I would have horrible diareaha and more unbearable cramps. I've had this off and on since I started taking the depakote so that may be the problem.
I need to get up and get my bloodwork retaken so she can up the Depakote. I like the weight gaining side effect since I have gained about 10 lbs since taking it, but I'm too down in the dumps today to get out of the house.
My dogs are fighting with one another. My boxer lets Daisy (the mini schnauzer) beat up on her and she just sits there. My poor Ruby. The groomers already told us that Daisy needs "some work" on her behavior. She's a wild one.
Bad Night
I was up off and on all night going to the bathroom. I don't know what I ate but I'd be lying in bed and just cramp up. I'd be in so much pain that I'd crawl into a fetal position and cry. Then I'd get up and go to the bathroom where I would have horrible diareaha and more unbearable cramps. I've had this off and on since I started taking the depakote so that may be the problem.
I need to get up and get my bloodwork retaken so she can up the Depakote. I like the weight gaining side effect since I have gained about 10 lbs since taking it, but I'm too down in the dumps today to get out of the house.
My dogs are fighting with one another. My boxer lets Daisy (the mini schnauzer) beat up on her and she just sits there. My poor Ruby. The groomers already told us that Daisy needs "some work" on her behavior. She's a wild one.
Posted By Sam @ 8:03 AM
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Monday, March 19, 2007
What Classic Pin Up Are You?
Posted By Sam @ 11:16 AM
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DO NOT donate to the Goodwill. I had a really bad experience yesterday that I cannot go into but besides that just think about it.
You give them you're used items and they put it in their store to resell.
They claim that their "Good Will" is to provide jobs. So what. So does Wal-Mart and any other business out there. They start their managers out at $7.50/hr and their regular employees out at minimum wage. (In Texas it's currently $5.15/hr) The CEO of Goodwill makes more than any other "charity" CEO. $530,693/yr hmmm.
A Non-profit organization only means that the companies main objective is some sort of charity and that it's tax deductable. Yet they still manage to over pay the big guy and under pay the actual worker.
So I will never shop or donate to the Goodwill ever again. Next time I'll go to a thrift store like Thrift Town (LOVES IT!) and take my left over garage sale clothing down on Lancaster street in Fort Worth and actually hand the clothes over to the homless myself, which Stacey and I have done before and it's much more rewarding that droping them off at some clothing donation box to be sold in a store so some CEO can make is half a mil a year.
As for the Salvation Army, I'll never forget this story. Obviously they care more about appearing morally "right" than helping out those in need and that turns me off of them. I also remember when Stacey's aunt's church gathered a bunch of food and clothing right after hurricane Katrina and took it to the local Salvation Army in Dallas. They looked her up and down and told her they didn't need her box of clothes and food, they needed money, and walked off. That right there turned an entire church off.
I still hate the Goodwill more.
I'm Pissed
DO NOT donate to the Goodwill. I had a really bad experience yesterday that I cannot go into but besides that just think about it.
You give them you're used items and they put it in their store to resell.
They claim that their "Good Will" is to provide jobs. So what. So does Wal-Mart and any other business out there. They start their managers out at $7.50/hr and their regular employees out at minimum wage. (In Texas it's currently $5.15/hr) The CEO of Goodwill makes more than any other "charity" CEO. $530,693/yr hmmm.
A Non-profit organization only means that the companies main objective is some sort of charity and that it's tax deductable. Yet they still manage to over pay the big guy and under pay the actual worker.
So I will never shop or donate to the Goodwill ever again. Next time I'll go to a thrift store like Thrift Town (LOVES IT!) and take my left over garage sale clothing down on Lancaster street in Fort Worth and actually hand the clothes over to the homless myself, which Stacey and I have done before and it's much more rewarding that droping them off at some clothing donation box to be sold in a store so some CEO can make is half a mil a year.
As for the Salvation Army, I'll never forget this story. Obviously they care more about appearing morally "right" than helping out those in need and that turns me off of them. I also remember when Stacey's aunt's church gathered a bunch of food and clothing right after hurricane Katrina and took it to the local Salvation Army in Dallas. They looked her up and down and told her they didn't need her box of clothes and food, they needed money, and walked off. That right there turned an entire church off.
I still hate the Goodwill more.
Posted By Sam @ 8:09 AM
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~28 secrets about yourself~ From Cori
1. Is your default picture your natural hair color?
Myspace profile pic? No.
2. Where was your default pic taken?
In my great grandmother's house in Savannah.
3. What's your middle name?
Lynn
4. Your current relationship status?
Happoly coupled
5. Honestly, does your crush(s) like you back?
?
6. What is your current mood?
Tired and irritable
7. What color shirt are you wearing?
blue
8. What makes you happy, honestly?
Today? Nothing
9. Are you musically inclined?
Somewhat
10. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you bE?
A bird
11. Ever had a near death experience?
No
12. Something you do a lot?
paint
13. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
Suddenly I See by...uh...don't know the girls name
14. Who did you copy and paste this survey from?
Cori
15. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
Franklin Delano Roosevelt.
16. When was the last time you cried?
A few days ago
17. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Mind reading
18. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
Nothing
19. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Chai latte or a Carmel Macchiato
20. Whats your biggest secret?
This is a little on the stupid side. I should have read all these first before I decided to post it.
21. What's your favorite color?
Pink
22. When was the last time you lied?
I really don't remember
23. Do you watch kiddy tv shows or movies?
Both
24. Do you have a best friend?
Yes
25. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
My size. I'd like to be a little taller.
26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Nothing at the moment. I'm full from Uncle Julio's Mexican shrimp something-or-nother and chips with Queso with a tall Dr. Pepper...mmmmmm.
27. Do you speak any other language?
I can throw some mean insults in Spanish, does that count?
28. What's your favorite scent?
The Healing Garden - Jasmine & Lavender
Sunday, March 18, 2007
~28 secrets about yourself~ From Cori
1. Is your default picture your natural hair color?
Myspace profile pic? No.
2. Where was your default pic taken?
In my great grandmother's house in Savannah.
3. What's your middle name?
Lynn
4. Your current relationship status?
Happoly coupled
5. Honestly, does your crush(s) like you back?
?
6. What is your current mood?
Tired and irritable
7. What color shirt are you wearing?
blue
8. What makes you happy, honestly?
Today? Nothing
9. Are you musically inclined?
Somewhat
10. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you bE?
A bird
11. Ever had a near death experience?
No
12. Something you do a lot?
paint
13. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
Suddenly I See by...uh...don't know the girls name
14. Who did you copy and paste this survey from?
Cori
15. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
Franklin Delano Roosevelt.
16. When was the last time you cried?
A few days ago
17. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Mind reading
18. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
Nothing
19. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Chai latte or a Carmel Macchiato
20. Whats your biggest secret?
This is a little on the stupid side. I should have read all these first before I decided to post it.
21. What's your favorite color?
Pink
22. When was the last time you lied?
I really don't remember
23. Do you watch kiddy tv shows or movies?
Both
24. Do you have a best friend?
Yes
25. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
My size. I'd like to be a little taller.
26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Nothing at the moment. I'm full from Uncle Julio's Mexican shrimp something-or-nother and chips with Queso with a tall Dr. Pepper...mmmmmm.
27. Do you speak any other language?
I can throw some mean insults in Spanish, does that count?
28. What's your favorite scent?
The Healing Garden - Jasmine & Lavender
Posted By Sam @ 4:08 PM
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I just listed this one on Ebay. It took 8 hours for my other two to show up in the listings and I'm hoping this one wont take as long. I like it better and it took me quite a while to do.
Painting
I just listed this one on Ebay. It took 8 hours for my other two to show up in the listings and I'm hoping this one wont take as long. I like it better and it took me quite a while to do.
Posted By Sam @ 9:50 AM
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Stacey and I went garage sale-ing this morning. We bought
a doggie gate for $3
a truck bed extender for $8
a little tikes toy box for $5 that we'll turn around and sell for $30
a little tikes race car bed, twin size with new decals for $40 which we are planning to re sell.
and we ended up with a free desk.
After that, we went to Cleburne to visit with Angie for a while and came back home. I've had a stomach ache for the last few hours probably from a mix of the V8 I had earlier and my medication. I ate some McDonald's nuggets to absorb some of the acid in my stomach and I feel better.
I'm tired.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
My Day
Stacey and I went garage sale-ing this morning. We bought
a doggie gate for $3
a truck bed extender for $8
a little tikes toy box for $5 that we'll turn around and sell for $30
a little tikes race car bed, twin size with new decals for $40 which we are planning to re sell.
and we ended up with a free desk.
After that, we went to Cleburne to visit with Angie for a while and came back home. I've had a stomach ache for the last few hours probably from a mix of the V8 I had earlier and my medication. I ate some McDonald's nuggets to absorb some of the acid in my stomach and I feel better.
I'm tired.
Posted By Sam @ 8:39 PM
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Another Pet Food Recall
I was buying Iams for Daisy and Ruby a while back until I was pouring it into their bowls and noticed something white sticking out of one of the puppy kibbles. Daisy had blood in her stool the week before and neither Stacey and I nor the vet could figure out what was causing it. Anyway, when I looked closer at the piece of food I noticed it was a shard of bone. I immediately took both dogs of the Iams and switched to Purina One and Daisy stopped bleeding. She was on the puppy chow and Ruby was on the adult food. So watch out those of you with pets. Just because it's expensive and claims to have high meat content, doesn't always mean it's safe.
Friday, March 16, 2007
Pet Deaths Prompt Recall of Pet Food
Another Pet Food Recall
I was buying Iams for Daisy and Ruby a while back until I was pouring it into their bowls and noticed something white sticking out of one of the puppy kibbles. Daisy had blood in her stool the week before and neither Stacey and I nor the vet could figure out what was causing it. Anyway, when I looked closer at the piece of food I noticed it was a shard of bone. I immediately took both dogs of the Iams and switched to Purina One and Daisy stopped bleeding. She was on the puppy chow and Ruby was on the adult food. So watch out those of you with pets. Just because it's expensive and claims to have high meat content, doesn't always mean it's safe.
Posted By Sam @ 6:30 PM
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I've never been told I look like any of these people, though I'm definitely not offended by it!
Usually I get told I look like Christina Aguilera . I've been told that one by all the gay guys in my group, the guy at the Mc Donald's drive through, a few waitresses and my therapist. It could be worse, right?
Thought This Was Cool
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I've never been told I look like any of these people, though I'm definitely not offended by it!
Usually I get told I look like Christina Aguilera . I've been told that one by all the gay guys in my group, the guy at the Mc Donald's drive through, a few waitresses and my therapist. It could be worse, right?
Posted By Sam @ 1:31 PM
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I've found some all kinds of people I know on Myspace. I found 2 of my childhood best friends and 2 of my cousins who don't know I've found them yet. I'm not so sure if my uncle would approve of what one of them had to say on her Myspace page. Drinking, smoking and partying?
I started a Myspace but I haven't figured out how to work it quite yet. I don't have but one friend on there right now and I want to add more photos but I'm usually the one taking them all so I don't have many of me.
I have some new artwork I'll be listing on Ebay today, sometime. I have to go to the bank now.
MOOD: Irritable
MySpace
I've found some all kinds of people I know on Myspace. I found 2 of my childhood best friends and 2 of my cousins who don't know I've found them yet. I'm not so sure if my uncle would approve of what one of them had to say on her Myspace page. Drinking, smoking and partying?
I started a Myspace but I haven't figured out how to work it quite yet. I don't have but one friend on there right now and I want to add more photos but I'm usually the one taking them all so I don't have many of me.
I have some new artwork I'll be listing on Ebay today, sometime. I have to go to the bank now.
MOOD: Irritable
Posted By Sam @ 8:28 AM
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Stacey and I went to eat at Fire Mountain Grill last night in Mansfield. We were dining on steak and eating sweet rolls and potatoes from the buffet when Stacey went back for a salad. While she was just about to sprinkle some cheese on top of her full salad plate, some little punk ass, booger picking, brat about age 8 came up to the cheese and started eating out of it with his fingers. Stacey made a noise at him to stop so he pulled all of the cheese out of his mouth and put it right back in the buffet. YAK! We both lost our appetites right away. I flagged down our waitress and told her what had happened and she took the cheese before anyone else got any.
You could tell by his parents that they could have cared less. I wanted to spit my chewed up steak right in the middle of THEIR food and see how THEY liked it. I also wanted to ring the kid's neck. He's old enough to know better. Tyler is 9 and he wouldn't think about doing something like that. I've watched him many times at buffets and he's so careful. Even the 6 year old doesn't act like that in a restaurant.
Ughgh. People.
Nasty Brats
Stacey and I went to eat at Fire Mountain Grill last night in Mansfield. We were dining on steak and eating sweet rolls and potatoes from the buffet when Stacey went back for a salad. While she was just about to sprinkle some cheese on top of her full salad plate, some little punk ass, booger picking, brat about age 8 came up to the cheese and started eating out of it with his fingers. Stacey made a noise at him to stop so he pulled all of the cheese out of his mouth and put it right back in the buffet. YAK! We both lost our appetites right away. I flagged down our waitress and told her what had happened and she took the cheese before anyone else got any.
You could tell by his parents that they could have cared less. I wanted to spit my chewed up steak right in the middle of THEIR food and see how THEY liked it. I also wanted to ring the kid's neck. He's old enough to know better. Tyler is 9 and he wouldn't think about doing something like that. I've watched him many times at buffets and he's so careful. Even the 6 year old doesn't act like that in a restaurant.
Ughgh. People.
Posted By Sam @ 7:25 AM
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I'm sitting here eating my turkey and beans and TRYING to swallow these huge Depakote pills. I have so much I need to do but I just want to sit and stare at the wall all day.
I need to go to the Post Office to stand in line for a hour to mail off some package.
I need to go to the craft store for art supplies.
I need to get the laundry done.
I need to bathe both dogs and I know when I let them in they will get mud EVERYWHERE so...
I'll have to scrub the rugs and carpet too.
I need to get my blood work re-done since they screwed it up last time.
I need to call a therapist off my list and make an appointment. Hopefully one will take my insurance.
I'm on my period and I feel horrible. I want to crawl back in bed and sleep.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
A New Day
I'm sitting here eating my turkey and beans and TRYING to swallow these huge Depakote pills. I have so much I need to do but I just want to sit and stare at the wall all day.
I need to go to the Post Office to stand in line for a hour to mail off some package.
I need to go to the craft store for art supplies.
I need to get the laundry done.
I need to bathe both dogs and I know when I let them in they will get mud EVERYWHERE so...
I'll have to scrub the rugs and carpet too.
I need to get my blood work re-done since they screwed it up last time.
I need to call a therapist off my list and make an appointment. Hopefully one will take my insurance.
I'm on my period and I feel horrible. I want to crawl back in bed and sleep.
Posted By Sam @ 9:11 AM
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I quit group today. I went home early yesterday. I hated my therapist, arrogant bitch. She told a suicidal girl who had taken an entire bottle of Trazodone and cut her wrist because she was homeless and wanted to die that SHE didn't care if she committed suicide or not, that SHE didn't want to see her back on that unit again.
I got up and walked out. I started having bad cramps and went home. I told them this morning that I wasn't going to get anything else out of this group, I was tired of being left out by the therapists and a bunch of gay guys comparing dick sizes and bragging about their fuck-a-thons and I wanted to be discharged. Now I have to find a therapist I can see one on one.
I'm sick. Stacey and I just got back from eating Chinese food. I had sushi and Stacey had the American food they serve. Steak sandwiches and prime rib. We have such different tastes. Opposites attract, right?
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Ughg
I quit group today. I went home early yesterday. I hated my therapist, arrogant bitch. She told a suicidal girl who had taken an entire bottle of Trazodone and cut her wrist because she was homeless and wanted to die that SHE didn't care if she committed suicide or not, that SHE didn't want to see her back on that unit again.
I got up and walked out. I started having bad cramps and went home. I told them this morning that I wasn't going to get anything else out of this group, I was tired of being left out by the therapists and a bunch of gay guys comparing dick sizes and bragging about their fuck-a-thons and I wanted to be discharged. Now I have to find a therapist I can see one on one.
I'm sick. Stacey and I just got back from eating Chinese food. I had sushi and Stacey had the American food they serve. Steak sandwiches and prime rib. We have such different tastes. Opposites attract, right?
Posted By Sam @ 6:28 PM
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We met the family at Joe's Crab Shack for lunch today. Stacey's mom had never been there so her sister insisted we all go. I ordered the Fisherman's Platter for $13.99, about the average price for an entree. Stacey's entree cost $17.99. The entire bill ended up $150.00 not including a tip. The stuffed mushroom and raw oyster appetizers were great and our waitress was sweet. I wasn't impressed at all with the main course. A hand full of little battered salad shrimp, some tiny battered scallops and some clam strips. Then a whole bunch of french fries. I could have bought a bag of the same shit frozen for about $5 at Kroger.
About an hour later my stomach began to burn. We went to visit Angie, Stacey's sister and our entire visit I was hunched over in pain. Fried seafood has a tendency to do that to me so I blame myself, not the restaurant, but I won't be going back to Joe's anytime soon.
Ruby got into the trash in the back yard and had it everywhere. Daisy had something orange in her beard so I picked her up and smelled her. I could tell it was spaghetti sauce. Nasty whores.
I have group tomorrow. I'm going to tell my therapist that I'd like to quit the group and save my free outpatient days for one on one therapy. I've had about 30 minutes out of an entire week of working on MY problems in group. Everyday a new person joins so we never have time for me or any of the members who have been there more than a day or so. It's a waste of my time and insurance money.
And again, I don't have a drug problem. It's like trying to treat someone for a heart attack when what they have is cancer.
Bullshit.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
My Weekend
We met the family at Joe's Crab Shack for lunch today. Stacey's mom had never been there so her sister insisted we all go. I ordered the Fisherman's Platter for $13.99, about the average price for an entree. Stacey's entree cost $17.99. The entire bill ended up $150.00 not including a tip. The stuffed mushroom and raw oyster appetizers were great and our waitress was sweet. I wasn't impressed at all with the main course. A hand full of little battered salad shrimp, some tiny battered scallops and some clam strips. Then a whole bunch of french fries. I could have bought a bag of the same shit frozen for about $5 at Kroger.
About an hour later my stomach began to burn. We went to visit Angie, Stacey's sister and our entire visit I was hunched over in pain. Fried seafood has a tendency to do that to me so I blame myself, not the restaurant, but I won't be going back to Joe's anytime soon.
Ruby got into the trash in the back yard and had it everywhere. Daisy had something orange in her beard so I picked her up and smelled her. I could tell it was spaghetti sauce. Nasty whores.
I have group tomorrow. I'm going to tell my therapist that I'd like to quit the group and save my free outpatient days for one on one therapy. I've had about 30 minutes out of an entire week of working on MY problems in group. Everyday a new person joins so we never have time for me or any of the members who have been there more than a day or so. It's a waste of my time and insurance money.
And again, I don't have a drug problem. It's like trying to treat someone for a heart attack when what they have is cancer.
Bullshit.
Posted By Sam @ 9:04 PM
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~ Stacey and I ate at Johnny Carinos today. Some may disagree, but the food was excellent, the prices were reasonable, and the service was great. I was very impressed and I will be going back, soon.
~I missed group today to get ready for our humongo garage sale tomorrow. Mama G and Nona are coming up to help. Angie gets her 4 hour pass tomorrow so she can spend it with Ty. I can't wait to see her. It's been almost 2 years!!!
~ I never in my life thought I could feel sorry for a child molester until yesterday. We have one in our group. His story (which I did some investigating and all turned out to be true) brought me to tears. I'll get deeper into that one some other time.
~ I have found two of my old childhood best friends. Both are doing great, both look great and I'm so happy to get to have contact with them again.
~I spoke with Mommie on the phone last night and this morning. She'll be 95 in May! God I love her.
~ We put on the best garage sale in the DFW area. I'm not lying. We buy our items at auctions and sell them cheap. Many of our customers are Mexicans that purchase the goods to take back to Mexico and they LOVE our low prices. Even with 3 people running the sale, we still end up with people stealing and things get pretty out of control. School buses can't get down our street and the neighbors come out bitching' but it's all worth while in the end.
~ When a toilet flushes it spews germs up to 12 feet in air. I just absolutely love when I go to into the bathroom at Wal-Mart, like today, lay my paper out on the seat, gently place my purse between my feet, drop my pants and ease down on the seat to piss and I move just a little to one side and the auto-flusher goes off and sprays water all over my bare ass. ARGH!
~ Stacey went to Cleburne to get some clothes racks and it's just me and Ruby. I have the windows open (not smart for this neighborhood but oh well, I have a gun) and the fans blowing and it feels pretty good.
~ I hope my 3 readers have a lovely weekend and stay safe.
Friday, March 09, 2007
Some Random Thoughts From The Last Few Days
~ Stacey and I ate at Johnny Carinos today. Some may disagree, but the food was excellent, the prices were reasonable, and the service was great. I was very impressed and I will be going back, soon.
~I missed group today to get ready for our humongo garage sale tomorrow. Mama G and Nona are coming up to help. Angie gets her 4 hour pass tomorrow so she can spend it with Ty. I can't wait to see her. It's been almost 2 years!!!
~ I never in my life thought I could feel sorry for a child molester until yesterday. We have one in our group. His story (which I did some investigating and all turned out to be true) brought me to tears. I'll get deeper into that one some other time.
~ I have found two of my old childhood best friends. Both are doing great, both look great and I'm so happy to get to have contact with them again.
~I spoke with Mommie on the phone last night and this morning. She'll be 95 in May! God I love her.
~ We put on the best garage sale in the DFW area. I'm not lying. We buy our items at auctions and sell them cheap. Many of our customers are Mexicans that purchase the goods to take back to Mexico and they LOVE our low prices. Even with 3 people running the sale, we still end up with people stealing and things get pretty out of control. School buses can't get down our street and the neighbors come out bitching' but it's all worth while in the end.
~ When a toilet flushes it spews germs up to 12 feet in air. I just absolutely love when I go to into the bathroom at Wal-Mart, like today, lay my paper out on the seat, gently place my purse between my feet, drop my pants and ease down on the seat to piss and I move just a little to one side and the auto-flusher goes off and sprays water all over my bare ass. ARGH!
~ Stacey went to Cleburne to get some clothes racks and it's just me and Ruby. I have the windows open (not smart for this neighborhood but oh well, I have a gun) and the fans blowing and it feels pretty good.
~ I hope my 3 readers have a lovely weekend and stay safe.
Posted By Sam @ 7:14 PM
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Back in Savannah, there isn't much to choose from when it comes to Mexican food. You can get all the fresh seafood you want, but there may be two restaurants in Savannah that claim to serve Authentic Mexican food and thy both remind me of a place here called El Fenix. (Dont know if they have those out east now or not)
I'm sitting here eating one of those El Charrito dinners you buy for $1.00 at Wal-Mart. Compared to El Fenix this is DAMN good.
Stacey, Kim and I went for lunch at El Fenix a few weeks ago and I was very unimpressed. The waiter was this fat greasy guy who was breathing hard and sweating profusely. He took our order. The two tables that came in 10 minutes after us were served their food while we sat and still waited on ours. The chips and salsa weren't bad but I had ordered a nacho platter for $8.99. I know $8.99 is cheap so I wasn't expecting much but some nachos with cheese, chili and maybe some lettuce and sour cream. Finally our panting waiter came back with the food with his sweat droplets falling into our pathetic looking lunches. They served Kim the wrong thing but she didn't bitch about it. Stacey had fajitas that looked like little burned turds with an onion, and my nachos were 12 tortilla chips with some greasy cheddar cheese sprinkled on top. The cheese was SO greasy that I just couldn't eat it.
Kim found a long black hair in her food. We determined it wasn't Stacey's short brown hair and it wasn't Kim's short black hair and certinaly not my long blond hair so it must be...the greasy waiters LONG BLACK HAIR. Ewww.
Stacey lost her appetite so we ordered one big to go box and filled it up with our dinners.
I gave it all to Ruby when I got home and felt a little guilty about doing it. My precious boxer deserves better than that nasty garbage.
She ate every bit and shit all over the place afterwards.
El Fenix Restaurants...Not even fit for a dog.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Mexican Food
Back in Savannah, there isn't much to choose from when it comes to Mexican food. You can get all the fresh seafood you want, but there may be two restaurants in Savannah that claim to serve Authentic Mexican food and thy both remind me of a place here called El Fenix. (Dont know if they have those out east now or not)
I'm sitting here eating one of those El Charrito dinners you buy for $1.00 at Wal-Mart. Compared to El Fenix this is DAMN good.
Stacey, Kim and I went for lunch at El Fenix a few weeks ago and I was very unimpressed. The waiter was this fat greasy guy who was breathing hard and sweating profusely. He took our order. The two tables that came in 10 minutes after us were served their food while we sat and still waited on ours. The chips and salsa weren't bad but I had ordered a nacho platter for $8.99. I know $8.99 is cheap so I wasn't expecting much but some nachos with cheese, chili and maybe some lettuce and sour cream. Finally our panting waiter came back with the food with his sweat droplets falling into our pathetic looking lunches. They served Kim the wrong thing but she didn't bitch about it. Stacey had fajitas that looked like little burned turds with an onion, and my nachos were 12 tortilla chips with some greasy cheddar cheese sprinkled on top. The cheese was SO greasy that I just couldn't eat it.
Kim found a long black hair in her food. We determined it wasn't Stacey's short brown hair and it wasn't Kim's short black hair and certinaly not my long blond hair so it must be...the greasy waiters LONG BLACK HAIR. Ewww.
Stacey lost her appetite so we ordered one big to go box and filled it up with our dinners.
I gave it all to Ruby when I got home and felt a little guilty about doing it. My precious boxer deserves better than that nasty garbage.
She ate every bit and shit all over the place afterwards.
El Fenix Restaurants...Not even fit for a dog.
Posted By Sam @ 8:55 AM
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Group sucked today. I sat there and sat there going over the 12 step program and talking about crack addiction when I DON'T HAVE A CRACK ADDICTION OR ANY DRUG ADDICTION. I'm bipolar and I need to cope with my mood swings. I'm not there for drug abuse. This is making group seem worthless.
I've eaten so much today that I feel like I'm going to explode. I had Dickie's BBQ for dinner. Brisket, fried okra and beans with sweet tea and a roll...mmmmmmmmm.
I think I'm going to vomit. It's coming up into my mouth then back down my throat. I have a gas bubble behind my left boob and it hurts to move. I'm bloated and tired. I think I'll sleep good tonight.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Group #2
Group sucked today. I sat there and sat there going over the 12 step program and talking about crack addiction when I DON'T HAVE A CRACK ADDICTION OR ANY DRUG ADDICTION. I'm bipolar and I need to cope with my mood swings. I'm not there for drug abuse. This is making group seem worthless.
I've eaten so much today that I feel like I'm going to explode. I had Dickie's BBQ for dinner. Brisket, fried okra and beans with sweet tea and a roll...mmmmmmmmm.
I think I'm going to vomit. It's coming up into my mouth then back down my throat. I have a gas bubble behind my left boob and it hurts to move. I'm bloated and tired. I think I'll sleep good tonight.
Posted By Sam @ 7:56 PM
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Normally I'm in bed by 9pm since Stacey started working days. I'm wide awake and can tell that I'm not going to get sleepy anytime soon. I took a Klonopin and hoping that will kick in soon.
I'm CRAVING V8 juice for some reason. I've been drinking on a 32oz bottle the last hour or so. It's like my body craves that healthy480mg of sodium tomato, lettuce, beet and carrot juice. Mmmmm.
I'm going to lay back down now.
Monday, March 05, 2007
Insomnia
Normally I'm in bed by 9pm since Stacey started working days. I'm wide awake and can tell that I'm not going to get sleepy anytime soon. I took a Klonopin and hoping that will kick in soon.
I'm CRAVING V8 juice for some reason. I've been drinking on a 32oz bottle the last hour or so. It's like my body craves that healthy
I'm going to lay back down now.
Posted By Sam @ 10:13 PM
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Went to group today. I didn't say much at first then the second half I opened up more. It's a PRIDE group so I'm with all my kind, including the therapists which makes it MUCH easier. I'm the only non-drug addict though. I'm not sure if the others can relate to me since they are in there for crack addiction (all of them) and I'm in there for bipolar. They were able to see my mood swings in action and were pretty entertained by them. I'd be all shy and quite one minute, then talkative and anxious the next. Then quiet again.
Stacey is sick with a cold. I've been boiling her water for extra hot baths (our water heater is 20 years old! Older than the house!) and trying to make her feel better but there's not much I can do.
Daisy is laying right in her ass crack. She likes to do that. I woke up this morning with her face in my ass. She's a weird one. She like to lick you right in the eyes, sleep across your face and bite your ears. She's a sweetie though.
I need to start selling my artwork again. I have nothing listed on Ebay right now and I NEED MONEY. I'm trying to save up for a trip to Savannah in July to see mommie. I miss her.
I go back to group again tomorrow at noon. Everyday Mon-Fri for the next 3 weeks. Yay.
Group #1
Went to group today. I didn't say much at first then the second half I opened up more. It's a PRIDE group so I'm with all my kind, including the therapists which makes it MUCH easier. I'm the only non-drug addict though. I'm not sure if the others can relate to me since they are in there for crack addiction (all of them) and I'm in there for bipolar. They were able to see my mood swings in action and were pretty entertained by them. I'd be all shy and quite one minute, then talkative and anxious the next. Then quiet again.
Stacey is sick with a cold. I've been boiling her water for extra hot baths (our water heater is 20 years old! Older than the house!) and trying to make her feel better but there's not much I can do.
Daisy is laying right in her ass crack. She likes to do that. I woke up this morning with her face in my ass. She's a weird one. She like to lick you right in the eyes, sleep across your face and bite your ears. She's a sweetie though.
I need to start selling my artwork again. I have nothing listed on Ebay right now and I NEED MONEY. I'm trying to save up for a trip to Savannah in July to see mommie. I miss her.
I go back to group again tomorrow at noon. Everyday Mon-Fri for the next 3 weeks. Yay.
Posted By Sam @ 6:48 PM
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I went to the Dr. this morning and told her I was starting group today. She was happy and didn't change my meds or anything. Last week she upped my Depakote to 1500 mg a day. I'm eating triple what I normally would. Luckily I'm skinny as it is so if I put on a few more pounds I might look better. I shit 5 or 6 times a day too. My stomach hurts and I have horrible gas. I can handle that though.
I'm thinking about going into an EMT program after I get finished with therapy. I'm not sure where to start.
My dogs are driving me nuts. Am I the only one out there who has a pet that sleeps with them and no matter how they decide to lay on the bed (mine prefers the center of my pillow) you will rearrange yourself into an uncomfortable position just to keep it from being disturbed? I wake up every morning in pain because my little bitch (mini schnauzer) likes to sleep on my pillow and sometimes if I'm on it first, she will lay across my face or throat. Arrgh!
Food
I went to the Dr. this morning and told her I was starting group today. She was happy and didn't change my meds or anything. Last week she upped my Depakote to 1500 mg a day. I'm eating triple what I normally would. Luckily I'm skinny as it is so if I put on a few more pounds I might look better. I shit 5 or 6 times a day too. My stomach hurts and I have horrible gas. I can handle that though.
I'm thinking about going into an EMT program after I get finished with therapy. I'm not sure where to start.
My dogs are driving me nuts. Am I the only one out there who has a pet that sleeps with them and no matter how they decide to lay on the bed (mine prefers the center of my pillow) you will rearrange yourself into an uncomfortable position just to keep it from being disturbed? I wake up every morning in pain because my little bitch (mini schnauzer) likes to sleep on my pillow and sometimes if I'm on it first, she will lay across my face or throat. Arrgh!
Posted By Sam @ 10:12 AM
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We went to see Wild Hogs today. It was hilarious! If you haven't seen it yet, go see it. It's just an all around fun movie. We also saw Norbit. It was funny but Wild Hogs was way better. After that we ate at Taco Cabana and went home. I have to be at the Dr. at 9AM tomorrow and I start group at 12PM. Not looking forward to it. Goodnight.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Wild Hogs
We went to see Wild Hogs today. It was hilarious! If you haven't seen it yet, go see it. It's just an all around fun movie. We also saw Norbit. It was funny but Wild Hogs was way better. After that we ate at Taco Cabana and went home. I have to be at the Dr. at 9AM tomorrow and I start group at 12PM. Not looking forward to it. Goodnight.
Posted By Sam @ 9:51 PM
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I am obsessed with the paranormal. If something is known to be haunted, I want to go there. Recently I visited the location of the "Screaming Bridge." You can't get down to the actual spot because they have the now dirt road blocked off and it was too muddy to walk to when Stace and I went, but I plan to get to the spot one of these days. It's close to my FAVORITE park, River Legacy Park. The park is said to be haunted with confederate soldiers and the park can be really creepy especially on a cloudy day. This is a good list to many of the haunted spots in Texas. I've visited quite a few of the places. One of my favorites that they just recently tore down (it says it burned but I don't think so) was the house on Arkansas Road. As the story goes (copied from The Shadowlands):
Arlington - Arkansas Road-House - A big house on a hill where a boy murdered his family in the 90's. It's said that if you go into the house mysterious people run out, weird noises our heard like footsteps, doors slamming, windows breaking. - November 2003 Update: The house was built in the 40's. The whole area around it was a ranch, and that's where the family lived. The murders happened in the 60's or early 70's. There are two stories; the first being the family had a retarded son they kept in the cellar, but not abusively. He lived down there, had everything he need, bathroom, bed, television. There is a large walk in freezer down there too. Apparently he murdered his parents and kept the bodies in the freezer, and eventually died himself. The second story is that The kid that lived there wasn't retarded, and after his parents died of natural causes lived there. It's said he was a pedophile and a child murderer and would kill children and hide their bodies in the freezer. Right now it's zoned for commercial use, so companies keep buying the property with plans to level it and put a building there. About two or three weeks later, they'll sell it. Reports of a family who bought it and started to renovate it. New shingles, new windows, all the graphite on the outside is gone, but 3 weeks later, all work on the house stopped. Right now there is a fence around the property, and the road has been lowered, but you can still see it. - March 2007 Update: Burned down Summer 2006
I visited this place a few times. It's scary. I've been into the basement, and actually looked inside the freezer but it was so dark that I couldn't see anything. There was lots of satanic graffiti on the walls and no hallways in the house. An interesting place to check out. Too bad it's not there anymore.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Haunted Places In Texas
I am obsessed with the paranormal. If something is known to be haunted, I want to go there. Recently I visited the location of the "Screaming Bridge." You can't get down to the actual spot because they have the now dirt road blocked off and it was too muddy to walk to when Stace and I went, but I plan to get to the spot one of these days. It's close to my FAVORITE park, River Legacy Park. The park is said to be haunted with confederate soldiers and the park can be really creepy especially on a cloudy day. This is a good list to many of the haunted spots in Texas. I've visited quite a few of the places. One of my favorites that they just recently tore down (it says it burned but I don't think so) was the house on Arkansas Road. As the story goes (copied from The Shadowlands):
Arlington - Arkansas Road-House - A big house on a hill where a boy murdered his family in the 90's. It's said that if you go into the house mysterious people run out, weird noises our heard like footsteps, doors slamming, windows breaking. - November 2003 Update: The house was built in the 40's. The whole area around it was a ranch, and that's where the family lived. The murders happened in the 60's or early 70's. There are two stories; the first being the family had a retarded son they kept in the cellar, but not abusively. He lived down there, had everything he need, bathroom, bed, television. There is a large walk in freezer down there too. Apparently he murdered his parents and kept the bodies in the freezer, and eventually died himself. The second story is that The kid that lived there wasn't retarded, and after his parents died of natural causes lived there. It's said he was a pedophile and a child murderer and would kill children and hide their bodies in the freezer. Right now it's zoned for commercial use, so companies keep buying the property with plans to level it and put a building there. About two or three weeks later, they'll sell it. Reports of a family who bought it and started to renovate it. New shingles, new windows, all the graphite on the outside is gone, but 3 weeks later, all work on the house stopped. Right now there is a fence around the property, and the road has been lowered, but you can still see it. - March 2007 Update: Burned down Summer 2006
I visited this place a few times. It's scary. I've been into the basement, and actually looked inside the freezer but it was so dark that I couldn't see anything. There was lots of satanic graffiti on the walls and no hallways in the house. An interesting place to check out. Too bad it's not there anymore.
Posted By Sam @ 8:10 PM
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Hugh & Holly To Wed?
Posted By Sam @ 1:20 PM
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Bridget, Kendra and Holly have NOTHING on this bunny baby!
One Hot Bitch!
Bridget, Kendra and Holly have NOTHING on this bunny baby!
Posted By Sam @ 12:35 PM
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Everyone tells me to keep a journal rather than expose myself to the Internet through a blog. I always admired my dad and how he didn't give a shit what ANYONE thought. He would say how he felt no matter who he scared, pissed off or hurt. I'm not that way. I am at times, but I don't like when friends and family find my blog and read about time where I've cut myself or went into the hospital because then they fear me. The purpose of this blog is not to scare my friends and family.
I know my dad would want me to blog. He was so proud of his and I was so surprised at all online friends and fans that he had. He was his own celebrity in a way. People from all over the world adored him.
I'm not going to post this blog all over the place. I'll give the address to a few online friends and whoever else finds it, then great. This is going to be a place for me to rant and rave whenever I'm having a mood swing or whatever.
I was in the hospital a few weeks ago for cutting myself. My best friend moved away and I can't hold down a job without walking out after about a year because I get so upset over nothing. Luckily I sell my artwork on Ebay to help pay the bills.
I have had no motivation to paint anything over the last few days. I sometimes feel like It's a waste. And when I don't sell something I feel like shit.
I have no energy to get up and clean this disgusting house, I'm not tired enough to go back to bed. I just want to sit in a chair and stare at the wall for hours.
I hope this group therapy helps. I've been to so many groups in the past that I'm not very hopeful. What's the magic word that's going to change my life? Nothing. I'm going to sit there while everyone tells me to quit feeling sorry for myself, to grow up and to think about all the other people I'm hurting. Then I'll go home, think about how selfish I am and how I'm hurting those who care about me and I'll want to die.
I'm afraid of that. We'll see won't we.
My Last Few Weeks
Everyone tells me to keep a journal rather than expose myself to the Internet through a blog. I always admired my dad and how he didn't give a shit what ANYONE thought. He would say how he felt no matter who he scared, pissed off or hurt. I'm not that way. I am at times, but I don't like when friends and family find my blog and read about time where I've cut myself or went into the hospital because then they fear me. The purpose of this blog is not to scare my friends and family.
I know my dad would want me to blog. He was so proud of his and I was so surprised at all online friends and fans that he had. He was his own celebrity in a way. People from all over the world adored him.
I'm not going to post this blog all over the place. I'll give the address to a few online friends and whoever else finds it, then great. This is going to be a place for me to rant and rave whenever I'm having a mood swing or whatever.
I was in the hospital a few weeks ago for cutting myself. My best friend moved away and I can't hold down a job without walking out after about a year because I get so upset over nothing. Luckily I sell my artwork on Ebay to help pay the bills.
I have had no motivation to paint anything over the last few days. I sometimes feel like It's a waste. And when I don't sell something I feel like shit.
I have no energy to get up and clean this disgusting house, I'm not tired enough to go back to bed. I just want to sit in a chair and stare at the wall for hours.
I hope this group therapy helps. I've been to so many groups in the past that I'm not very hopeful. What's the magic word that's going to change my life? Nothing. I'm going to sit there while everyone tells me to quit feeling sorry for myself, to grow up and to think about all the other people I'm hurting. Then I'll go home, think about how selfish I am and how I'm hurting those who care about me and I'll want to die.
I'm afraid of that. We'll see won't we.
Posted By Sam @ 11:33 AM
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I'm going to keep this one a little more private. Everytime I start a blog, I end up hurting someone or scaring someone I care about. I'm mentally ill and everyone thinks I'm dangerous because of it. I'm not.
Actually I'm a pretty nice person. Yeah, piss me off and I will retailiate but I could never do bodily harm to someone unless my life or the life of someone I cared about was threatened.
I start groups on Monday. I went for my assessment Friday and I'll be attending groups 3-5 days a week for 15 + days. I don't really WANT to, but I'm tired of living this way.
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I'm going to keep this one a little more private. Everytime I start a blog, I end up hurting someone or scaring someone I care about. I'm mentally ill and everyone thinks I'm dangerous because of it. I'm not.
Actually I'm a pretty nice person. Yeah, piss me off and I will retailiate but I could never do bodily harm to someone unless my life or the life of someone I cared about was threatened.
I start groups on Monday. I went for my assessment Friday and I'll be attending groups 3-5 days a week for 15 + days. I don't really WANT to, but I'm tired of living this way.
Posted By Sam @ 10:53 AM
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I'm pretty, but I'm not beautiful. I sin, but I'm not the devil. I'm good. but I'm not an angel.
~Marilyn Monroe
Who Am I?
My Blogger Profile
100 Things
E-mail Me
Ebay Listings
Myspace Profile
Portfolio
Help Me Go To Savannah!
Archives
Blogs
Gut Rumbles
Sun & Moon Sorcery
Caught In The X fire
Mom Is Nutz
Northwoods Woman
What now Murphy?
Wichi Dude
Theater of Soul
Tall Cool Drink of Water
Buy Your Musical Instruments Here: Music and Things
